The night before the big day was the scariest.
I hate packing. So, I left that to be done on that night. The nerves were kicking in and the fear was real.
Wanting something all your life feels so much different from having it.
When my first solo trip got confirmed, I couldn’t stop raving about it to everybody!
I Imagined everything from outfits for each day of the trip to meeting cute strangers on my flight.
But on the night before my flight, the nerves kicked in hard enough for me to question my decision.
Was I ready to take this trip all by myself?
I am not particularly the kind of person who scares easy.
Or so I told myself until this trip.
I woke up early on the big day. The house was empty because mamma-baba were out vacationing with their friends. I did my daily chores, cleaned the house, packed everything, and made a quick trip to the store to get everything else. Done.
I still had four hours till I left for the airport and the thoughts in my head were not being my friend.
I am used to mamma re-packing my bags for every trip I take. She knows exactly what I forgot to pack. So, I pack, she re-packs.
She wasn’t home this time.
I am also used to baba dropping me to the airport every time. No matter how busy he is, he always clears his schedule. Taking a cab to the airport while leaving for a vacation was just depressing.
Vrishank says I am spoilt. I disagree. As always.
I decided to get ready and leave for the airport earlier than I needed to. I was alone and scared at home. I’d rather be alone and scared at the airport.
I always thought I needed company. Every time I had to go to the mall, my first thought was listing the possible people I could quickly call to come hang out with me. Even a trip to the store to buy milk and eggs comprised of nervous-calling everybody I knew so I had someone to talk to till I got home. Every once in a while, I would tell myself to spend some me-time. Which was poor translation for Netflix and Stuff-your-face-till-you-get-sick. I always believed I was the sort of person who needs people around all the time. I wasn’t quite sure I would enjoy my company. Maybe that is why I dreaded this trip so much so suddenly.
Since I was at the airport way before time, I decided to have a mini-meal before I queue at the check-in counter. Went straight for momos and a strawberry cocktail. The momos were delicious but the drink sucked. I finished it all anyway because I paid way too much for it. Yep. I am Indian in every way like that.
It’s frustrating how I can’t remember the last flight I took from Mumbai which wasn’t delayed. This time the delay was of a whole 90 minutes. I knew this was going to come bite me in the ass and so it did. Quite expectantly I missed my connecting flight to Penang from Kualalampur. I don’t know what I was more upset about. Missing my flight or spending 3 more hours at the airport.
Anyhoo! Took the next flight out and checked into my hotel room in Penang by around 4pm!
I’ve always been a fan of long, quite baths. So, took one and hit the bed right away.
I realized I hadn’t slept in more than 24 hours. Counting my overnight flight and the delay! I got no sleep on the plane. There were 2 screaming kids in a 10-meter radius from my seat.
I KNOW!
Woke up at around 9:30 pm, changed and decided to get some dinner. Walked to the hotel’s restaurant only to find it completely empty. Not a soul in sight. According to the waiter, everyone in town wraps dinner before 8pm. Thank god, my hotel had a 24-HR restaurant.
Got myself a table by the pool facing the sea. This hotel was snazzy. It had a private beach. I couldn’t dare to get a table closer to the sea though. I’ve always feared water after sundown. The sea sounds so angry to me at nights.
This was officially my first meal in Penang. So, I decided to order a local delicacy.
‘Mamak Mee’ is what I settled for. Noodles, chicken and fish cakes. What’s not to like!
This was also my first meal with myself. Back home I never really go out to eat by myself.
And I don’t know why!
I stared into my phone for the first couple of minutes because I was so confused as to what the rest of my body is supposed to do when I am sitting at a table alone with food and nobody to talk to or no television to stare at.
The food was GOOD!
I eventually put my phone down and ate in silence.
Hmm. Not so bad.
Finished dinner, cleared my bill, thanked the waiter and walked away.
I didn’t quite feel like heading back to my room just yet. It was too late to walk around town alone. So, I took a stroll around the hotel property. The roaring waves made my walk in the opposite direction from the beach. Walked around for a bit. There was a pool, another restaurant, a parking spot and a condo. Spotted a bench in the condo and sat down for a bit.
Mumbai is always buzzing. No matter what time of day. Cars, honks, people. Also, the weather back home is torturing.
However, it was surprisingly quiet on the streets here. An occasional motor-biker passed by but otherwise, I could still hear the waves. The weather felt great too. Not as humid as I had expected.
I sat on the bench with a blank mind. I had no thoughts. I stared at the street then at the parking lot and then back at the street. An occasional thought about home crossed my mind. But other than that, nothing really. I checked my watch, it said 11:20 pm.
Went back to staring.
Checked my watch again. It said 12:20 pm
WHAT!!
Killing time was always a task for me. I would deliberately reach places late because I hated waiting alone.
Not anymore, I guess!
That hour on the bench alone was the best part of my day.
To come to think of it, when was the last time you spent an hour being your selfish self? I have no memory of a time when I decided to think of myself and myself only and do everything that pleased nobody but me. I can’t even count the number of movies I missed or the restaurants I ditched because I didn’t have company.
I remember spending hours after lights-out, sitting on a stool in front of my mirror talking to myself about my day and going to bed happy because I knew my mind and my heart were on the same page. I have no idea why I stopped that exercise. People never believed me, but I never felt the need of having a sibling growing up because I loved myself as a child.
Nostalgically, I walked back to my room happier that night because now I knew I enjoyed my company. And finally, this solo trip seemed like the best decision ever!
Changed back into my PJs, got in bed, surfed the internet for a while and turned the lights off at 4:15 am.
And that was day one.
Until now I loved U as a Funny person but now I love u as an Inspiration. I plan to read books but end up watching ur videos but now I have sumthing to read too . Love ya Prajakta💞💋💋💋💋
That was amazing.!!!😍😍
Selfish self.😎😎
I have seen ur Penang vlog which was indeed great to watch but reading this blog,the way u describe the entire thing was kickass…💕 Love you.😘 Waiting to read your next article.. All the best.
One word.
Ammmmmmmmmaaaaaziiing!
Your wordss describess your inner soul♥ loved the simplicity andd..the wayy you poured our heart out in it describing every single moment 👏waiting forr more to comee😍 All the very bestt..and Congratulations Prajaktaa dii!😘 your dumdums love you!💓
Nice story Prajakta. I love reading novels but from now on I will read your blogs. Love Love Mohit
You write Amazing Prajakta Di!!! You are insanly fabulous! It takes hell lot of a guts to travel alone that too in a diffrent country! You are a great source of inspiration. You are best at your job. Keep up the good work. LoveLove. 🎉🎉🌹
Prajakta Tai the blog was awesome like what I felt while reading was such a beautiful experience ur writing and ofcourse u both are awesome
It’s good I would want to read such stuff again 😘 I’m a huge fan of yours and a subscriber and a follower of yours love the way you dress and the ring of yours
Beautifully penned !! 😘
You are amazing, Prajakta!!! ❤️ Stay blessed!! More power to you 😘
— A big fan ✌️
It took me to the situations to described….Amazinggggg!! I look forward for more articles of yours.. Love you!
This is exactly how I am!! I never go anywhere alone am scared to be all by myself and I m an extrovert too. Fab job.
लव्ह लव्ह ♥️
I love you and this blog so very much. I’m so proud of you❤
-Tasneem
Let me tell you this was amazing…It seems a different you…like the way you talk in your videos and the way you talk here,is different,but still somewhere it gives a hint of you…. I loved it.Waiting for more…Love you😘
I dont know why you didnt think of this before. You are an amazing writer. I loved it best reading material ever. You should probably write a book now cause that’s what’s gonna get me into reading for sure.
It’s amazing! I loved it! Thank you for inspiring and most importantly, making me realize that how important and perfect I am for myself! Thank you! ♥️
i can totally relate to it….. going on a trip with yourself….it can be the best experience ever…. jb aise raaston par zindagi hume khud se milane me madad karti hai…
Amazing post Prajakta! The blog is fantastic. Well done Dear 🙂 This post was so so so much relatable. Can’t wait to read more of this. 🙂 🙂 I am sure the people reading your posts would be able to connect to you on a newer horizon. And its a whole new and fantastic journey. Welcome to Bloggosphere my friend 🙂 🙂
Woah! This one was really good. I usually do not prefer reading but u inspired me to read more often. #Lovelove
It is so much amazyynnn😘😘😘
Love love
I could literally imagine you talking.. The way you say *whaaaatt*
anywayy it’s amazingly written and put 🙂
Loved it prajakta… I could feel you and felt like you are talking to me…. would love to read more of your work… keep it up… 🤗😍🤗😍🤗😍🤗❤❤❤❤❤
Good job prajakta u write amazing…. It was our pleasure to read dis…. Waiting for more to come…. Dumdums love u… 💟💝💗😘
So expressive! 😍
You are really amazing❤…it happened with me too.. the solo trip is all u need ✔….I didn’t thought it would be great to write such things but you had really made me feel what I am….I am seeing me in u…I was eagerly waiting for this blog to come😁 u have really done a great job❤
Luv u❤❤
I am into reading since long. Was confused on to which new book to start with. You helped me out with a Grt option. I love the way you keep doing something or the other. You keep me engaged nd make me forget everything else for that 5-7 mins may it be your YouTube videos nd now even this. Best of luck.
Hey!! Loved your blog! Tbh there are times when even i think of the same but never really happens. Would love to read more of travel blogs! Since I’ve started writing poetry and stuff just a few days back, it really inspired me. Looking forward to more!!
Amazing❤ mesmerizing..i m nt a big fan of reading blogs…but ur blog prajakta di..it just made me think SHIII SO BAD! I have to wait to read further…now i cant wait to read ur every word….more over it feels like a connection getting stronger bwn u nd us…i felt dat…i connected more bcz no matter even if u writing andu r not in front of camera i cld relate to u understand u(listen ur voice over tone)bcz one thing u kept constant is u wrote the way u think,speak directly from heart like ohyeaah! Or i pack she repack …dats how u speak in ur videos…u didnt use fancy words or smthng…GRT JOB KEEP IT UP!lors of love from ur dum dum
Great prajukta di, l loved it!!! Keep going l think u can do more better
Immense beautyy! You’re an all rounder😍❤ loveeeloveee
It was really awesome😘😘
#Creativemind.. Narration is so simple but yet so impressive!! good going.
Amazing…. loved ur videos firstly
Now started liking ur write up… surely after sometime I vl b in love wid them…😍😍😍
“wanting something all ur life feels so much different from having it”… 😍😍😍😍
Keep it up swty….
Nice job dear.. many congo for ur 1st official blog and a full fledged website of yours. I always wondered that videos me toh best hai hi. but agar prajakta ko koi website ya blog hota toh kaisa hota.. and finally u have it.. i’m so glad to see what i’m seeing right now.. well as a graphic designer and management person, i’d like to give some feedback.. i like the overall simplicity and the usage of particular font style to ur site, that really defines the design it has right now.. however, i feel like the design could be much better. because of the layout of the blog, the overall indentation has shifted to right side.. and the left part feels blank.. also the desktop view is good but in mobile view, the social media buttons on bottom right corner comes in the way of reading blogs and sabse niche wala insta button is like touching down the mobile screen.. so little bit of design changes could do wonders.. 🙂 i know its just a start, and things take time to flourish.. but as u said.. constructive stuff always helps.. 🙂
Loved it😊😊
This was such a straight from the heart post. I loved it to bits ❤️❤️ Way to go bro. Way to go 😘
Prajkta, The blog was awesone . I loved it looking forward for more blogs.
Lovely👏😚
Jus one thing it should be 12.20 am..
Otherwise it was amazing.. multitalented😉
The moment you realize you are the best version of yourself.. that’s the moment your life begins to rock!
All my love you to.. now not only you are my favorite YouTuber.. but my inspiration too!
May you have many more awesome blogs to come!
#LoveLove
#AllRounder
You are the best! I love you so much 💕💕💕
This blog was amazing Prajakta.😍😘
Woah.. It now completely brings out your true self.. I loved every sentence.. The entire experience seemed so normal and simply amazing… I could totally imagine you checking on time and again getting back to staring.. Haha.. Loved it.. And love u… 😘😘😘
Good work prajakta…keep it up…I don’t know what exactly but some parts in ur writing really made me nostalgic…I could relate to it’s vibes …. sometimes it felt like that, I am reading my very own narration..maybe that’s what it is…maybe some people do think a certain way when they are alone..🙂🙂🙂
Superb! ❤️
Absolutely amazing! It felt like I’m reading a book..❤️ Just one suggestion please change the font size so that I don’t have to scroll after every 2 sec ..baki ekdum masta! #LoveLove
My boyfriend is a crazy fan of yours. He loves your videos and I like them too but not as much as him. He dms me almost every picture of yours and says she is sso cutttee. But the point is I loved what I wrote. I have become a fan of your blog. How simply u put up words into meaningful sentences. Now even I am a fan of urs.
Right from the picture at the start to the end of the blog everything was soo so soo heartfelt…. you really inspire me in every way.. love you prajakta… you are more like a FAMILY ❤️
To be honest i don’t Like reading blogs as this was my first one as i previously read your article also so its officially 2nd and i have no regret to read this, As i enjoyed reading this you don’t believe but I Almost Cried As you were alone and on other hand i was happy that you met yourself.
Amazing !!! I Literally Loved this.
Waiting For your next one.
All The Best.
***The Blog Can be Extended, This was too short I guess***
Amazing ….just loved it …I love watching ur video ur very funny n cute …apart from DAT ur inspiring too…Ty … N all d best … 😊
I never read..I hate reading…
But this was the first time in my life that I couldn’t wait for what is written next
I like the way how you keep it simple and don’t use any high fandu vocab
CZ non readers like me would definitely hate that
Your website is awesome!! It’s really attractive!
Iove you prajakta!!!!