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she said yes.

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i took her out on a date.

i’ve always held pride in knowing exactly what she likes. but then she wakes up one morning feeling the opposite and i am thrown off my game.

i knew she likes spending time at the mall. but ugh the holiday rush is such a turn off. i knew she likes sappy holiday movies that made absolutely no sense whatsoever. especially this time of the year. but every time netflix suggested one, she picked Friends. her pinterest is flooded with home decor pins. so i knew she loves that. but she changed her phone a year ago and hasn’t logged into her account ever since. she loves books. so maybe i could ask her out to an afternoon of books and chai in her balcony? but she hasn’t gotten past the first three pages of the last Murakami book she picked. shopping, she loves! but the last thing she bought was korean instant ramen off the marketplace on amazon. she likes puppies. but she lost the two she had recently adopted to food poisoning, so must steer clear of that. she loves facetiming with people she loves, but work’s been crazy and she has barely found time to clock eight hours of sleep in the last few months. journals! yes. but her last entry was on the 12th of october. and it’s december now.

i haven’t met her in a while. she looks just the same but so much has changed. it’s like watching your favourite movie but someone changed the subtitles language. i watch her, but i don’t see her. i hear her, but i can’t listen. i touch her, but i cannot feel.

then the sun rose today. she woke up a whole minute before she intended to. with nowhere to be and nothing to do. she made her bed and her chai. she finished her seventh book this month. she showered and went to the mall. she bought presents for people she loves. she bought photo frames and potted plants. she bought a rug. traffic was crazy as usual, so she spent her car time facetiming not one but two friends. she bought herself a new pair of pajamas. she came home with takeout chinese boxes and watched a sappy christmas movie. she cleaned her room for the first time in well over three weeks. and then she sat down to write.

a wholesome day.

some would even call it a date.

so yeah,

i took her out on a date.

finally.

P.S. – she hates it when i romanticise a regular day in a blogpost. she also hates whole articles written in lower caps. but that’s a discussion for another day.

322 Comments

      1. Esha

        I love the way you have written this, this might have been just a little thought in the back of your mind but the way you’ve written is just mind-blowing

  3. Sakshi Shah
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    Subtly striking the right chords. P your style has not changed and that’s amazing considering how big you have become! It felt like reading the journal entry of the Prajakta Koli I had subscribed to when she had just started.

  4. JIGYANSA PANDA
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    such a wholesome date it was P:) & i think we might have to keep on adding things to the list of your talents<3, p.s. small caps are cool though

  6. Spoorti
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    Rolled a tear or two, damn this is emotional. As much as we love the new Prajakta and are proud of her milestones, we miss the old YouTube Prajakta sometimes. Those Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays were waited for every week. But you giving these crazy surprises of your projects blows our mind. All the best!!! Miss you, P!!! Love youuuuu

  9. Sanika khandagale
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    It just felt like a hig from younger prajakta after so long i saw the glimpse of her in this blog and it felt so amazing.. Its so subtle way of seeing things and so beautiful

  17. Suchetana Ghosh
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    I never read a blog before. Today I saw your story on Instagram and thought of reading yours. I love and respect you more after reading it. How beautifully you’ve penned, girl! What a style! Absolutely loved it!! Keep writing. We love you! <3

  19. Arti kohli
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    Such simple daily life things, so well articulated n penned. Pleasing to read, definitely brought a smile to my face too!!! Good job P

  20. Nikki
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    Wow I’m going with some changes in myself due to changes in life but this blog given me a fantastic idea to go on a date with this new myself and think for a minute that change is not scary 🙂 Thank you @mostlysane

  22. Alexis
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    this was so wholesome. ill be coming back to this blog when ill be feeling low. the feelings you have expressed are put in a phenomenal way.

  24. Kimaya Wasnik
    Reply

    A day in P’s life! Wowww! You’re just amazing! Could feel each word and the warmth behind those letters !❤🥺
    Good Job, P! 👍

  28. Koina singhania
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    You have blown me again with your thoughts and writing. I think you should put more blogs now regularly because you are so really good at it. It’s literally feels like a warm hug In cold weather. Great job prajakata. Will be waiting for another one!♥️♥️♥️♥️

  31. Hitaxi Topiya
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    It feels like you are hugging me with your warm words in this winter days.. You and your writings are so much relatable yaar.. Proud of you… This year has been such a roller coaster ride for you we know.. but hey you just keep growing and glowing P! Love Love!!

  35. Supriya achary
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    Praju didi you just spoke through my soul. No doubt I had remarkable changes this year but you made me to embrace my own battle scars my own shine. Thank you didi for this beautiful article posting that to at 3 A. M. I MEAN GENIUS!! Sukoon milgaya didi.. Love love 💖

  38. Sreeja
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    Wanted to take her also to a date, just wanted her to say yes as well…but seems like she is far away to reach out..far away to hear me…..not able to grab her….may be she is leaving ?

  40. Abarna Kundu
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    A nice read. I want to be her at this point.. It’s 28th December and i am in office… It’s the peak hour in the bank and i am behind the counter reading this blog. I want to be her so desperately.

  43. Medha
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    Hi… I don’t know if you will read it or not but it felt so similar to me as I really think how the past me and present me have changed…
    How my interest, hobbies and new work schedule have changed which changed a bit of me
    But I’m still me and Trying to figure out the way to stop Overthinking about how I’ve changed but I can’t
    Thanks Prajakta Didi for Comforting me in some way

  44. Ummehani Patel
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    This is just beautiful 🥹. You should write more🤌🏻 Been following you for a while now and I understood what you were talking about ✨🤍

  47. Mileyy
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    I love it praju. This feels like losing yourself in some tiring repeated cycle of life. Nd u forget what u are. But this of the year ughhh, it’s special.

  49. Sanskruti
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    Sweet gesture to remind us that nothing in the world is important than yourself. Prioritise yourself and give time to yourself ❤️

  50. Uddhav Godbole
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    It’s very instant heart to heart connection. I know I have been to that place where someone whom you loved so much gradually changes. It’s very hard to keep up, but because you know that can be a better version of themselves you keep the bond. Maybe, sometimes they need their space but at the end of the day, the smile on their satisfying smile on their faces, just changes everything. Instantly, the warmth which was hidden comes out.
    And the funniest thing this all happens when you are not in your integrity.
    But, Prajakta……. You did an amazing job. And It’s so relatable. Hope to see some videos too……🤣❤️
    Lots of Love. ✨❤️❤️

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