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I’ll write about it.

Every time I get my heart broken, I tell myself, “Maybe I should write about it”. Get my feelings laid out on every blank page of my journal. See what I am missing. Tell myself what I need to hear. But then I wake up a few mornings later, having cried, having dealt, having learnt, having felt and I never write about it.

Every time I make a mistake, I tell myself, “I should write about it”. I really should. It’s a great lesson. Knowing me, there’s a strong chance I make this mistake again. Someone should read it back to me. Loud and clear. Maybe then I’ll know that I know better. But then I move on to making new mistakes and I never write about it.

Every time I hit a road block. I tell myself, “I’ll just write about it”. That might give me some new perspective. Maybe I’ll see something that’s been in plain sight. That’ll help me undo whatever it is that’s stopping me from being who I imagine myself to be. But then I find inspiration in mamma’s food, a new book, a song I’ve been humming wrong the whole time, and I never write about it.

Every time I wake up feeling unlike myself, I tell myself, “I’ll just write about it”. People change, people learn, people unlearn, I am people. I must be growing up. Or maybe it’s just indigestion from dinner last night. Maybe if I write about it, I’ll know how I actually feel. Maybe writing about it could be a dialogue between who I am and who I want to be. Maybe writing could be whatever magic software application it is that they use to mirror office computers on their laptops while they work from home. But then I meet a new kind of me, I end up liking her more than I had imagined and I never write about it.

Every time I tell myself that I’ll just write about it, I never do. I never write about it. I wonder how things would be if I had written about them. Would I deal with the heartbreak better? Would I make lesser mistakes? Would I evade creative roadblocks altogether? Would I have a hundred percent grip over myself? I don’t know.

But when I know, maybe I’ll write about it.

531 Comments

  1. Jennikins

    This is a summary of every unborn writer/I know I’m a writer if only I wrote every experience. I’ll try to write about what I thought I had to write when I wanted to write and write how things would be if I had written them down. A very thought provoking writeup.

    1. Advika Chowdhry

      I love reading your blogs they are amazing ❤️
      This one was so…………. enriching.
      These blogs are another word that help us to survive ❤️
      So Thanks alot
      #lovelove

    2. Rimjhim

      Di, this is the most relatable relevant thing that i read in ages… Like I just felt this is me, this is just me every night before I go to sleep. I think, I overthink , I feel helpless sometimes, then I sleep and the next morning and I forget everything. I don’t know if this is good or bad, is it for better or worse but to know that someone out there is so similar gives a kind of affirmation. Thank you for writing this one.
      Love love

    3. Pearl

      Hi p !! Whenever I see or read any of contents always feel motivated even if my day is bad or I am entirely drained and hv no energy to even handle myself I kn tht one thing which will instantly raise me up is ur contents watching same contents time n again doesn’t make me bore rather makes me motivated !! Speaking abt the blog it is as awesome as u r !! I feel u shld publish more like we love it !! Thnks p , love love 🤎

  2. Sharmistha Maji

    It’s brilliant! Every line holds the reality of each one of us (at least Me). We think we will document it somewhere to learn n unlearn but then we are lost somewhere in the hustle.

  3. Bijetree Sarkar

    Emotions are rarely potrayed through writing, but you’ve already written about it without even stating gigantic facts. In love with this writing really.

  4. Ishika Soni

    It made laugh. It made introspect and it made me realise something i wanted to. It was a great read. I’m really looking forward to your further blogs.

  5. Aishwarya Gawde

    Heyy…..it’s really good….i could relate n ig that’s the reason you know it’s said that every person has a different version of you in their mind…..looking forward for more such blogs…..virtual hug n lots of love 💕

  6. thrupthigorityala

    See prajakta when I read your blog i felt it’s me who are writing this words and it’s amazing to see that mere jaise jhalle log bhi hote hai and I appreciate ki tum yeh sab likh rahi ho aur aise hi likhte rehna taaki tumse aise hi inspire hote rahe

  7. Aryan

    Hey didi
    it was fabulous…
    and I wanted to tell this to you from a longer time that I hv a very very good friend, and she is mostlysane like you, her nature is mostly like you, anyway..
    the blog was fab…
    I should also THINK TO WRITE ABOUT IT..
    BYE

  8. Shravani Swami

    I’ll write about it…!!! This is so good!!! As a teenager… Some people would never understand this feeling…. The process of learning unlearning….. Or rather just living!
    Maybe one day… Almost entering in twenties…and Adulting… Falling down and getting lost in 1000 more roads…. I’ll write about it….!
    Praju di… You’ve always motivated me… To be myself… Be okay on my lowest of lowest days… And alotttt that I can’t even tell!
    We want more such blogs please!<3
    Love love!<3

  9. Ayushii

    You never fail to mesmerise us with your thoughts… speaking of which this was a masterpiece! ❤️ Maybe you’ll one day come up with better experiences about how to deal with life…and might be you’ll write about it!

  10. Shreya Tulasyan

    Prajakta di it’s too good. I also write poetries sometimes but most of it I just think of writing but i don’t actually write it. I could feel myself in your words. Keep going di❣️ you are awesome by every means😚 Love love❤

  11. Sohinee Ghosh Mondal

    Hi Prajakta, big fan of yours, and a voracious reader too! Don’t know if you will read it, but I just came back home from office, and received the notification of your YouTube video regarding this blog while I was on my way. First thing I did after reaching home was to check out the video, and then to read this blog. Loved it! You really should keep publishing these articles….it’s a bliss for readers like us!

  12. Shyama

    It’s actually nice to see some one writing about something that we all think. When I had lost my parents, I was in college first year.. my entire life was changed.. from a lovely home , I was shifted to a unknown Terran.. I dnt knw how else to explain. And there every day I would go about carrying my worries , thoughts ,concepts in my mind , all alone.. I would cry for days together and then would try to hide it.. for few days it would work thn again I will fall in to the same cycle. It was during one of such days, my roommate suggested I put down my worries in writing. She handed me my first dairy.. I started to talk to myself in there. I will not say it helped me forget my parents, but it helped in ways which I thought was not possible. I learned to prioritise my responsibilities, understand things about myself, like wot makes me sad , wot is holding me back and wot I need to avoid . This was 12 years ago.. I am now again in a phase of my life where am not able to understand my life or me for that fact. I am trying to again put down my thoughts on a paper.. hope it will help me get things back together again.

    Thanks for writing this Prajakta

  13. Astha

    I think I need to read as well write more to be able to get what u write.. Cz a teen here.. Reading this just cz u said it to.. !btw i loved ur blog i m almst an adult.. It’s so well written.. Btw i love writing and i say i will write about it..! ❤

  14. Sharon Lazarus

    Hey Prajakta….. It was lovely reading this…. Keep writing be always motivated you really inspired 💓💓💓💓 lots of love and support…. From Sharon

  15. Daniya Husain

    Interesting….. I don’t like reading because it was almost boring to me but reading this i didn’t felt bored so it’s quite Okay or interesting 😅❤️✨

  16. Vinni

    It was a nice read(courtesy of your YouTube video!).It is exactly what I am going through.I want to be able to go back and feel my experiences through my writing good or bad.Be it thoughts or feelings I have after reading a really good book or experiences I don’t ever want to relive.I Cannot seem to commit to writing and I cope like you cope!

  17. Khushi panda

    This is me….I always want to write about how I feel, and some time I try also but I can’t write…but I practice to write…so one day maybe I can write…you too also find out ..

  18. Ashishnaidu1

    This is totally one of the best blogs I’ve read. It’s short, informative, its unique and that uniqueness I guess attracted me the most. But over all great improvement praju❤️😘. Keep going❤️

  19. Prarthvi

    This is so cute. I am a writer myself and these are the exact thoughts I get. I’m at my lowest rn, not getting what I want to do and ykw maybe I’ll write about it.

  20. Rachit shah

    It was great , okaish and relatable at the same time of it makes sense i am an IIT Aspirant a dropper one and past few week i had stopped studying that this thinks is not meant for me and thinking something magic will happen and i will score 99 percentile which is wishful thinking i know but i cant stop it i had fought against my parents for months so that i could take drop but here i am wasting my time over movies and doing time paas i Dont know what i will do this stress of Knowing your fuck ups and not solving them is killing me i donts know what to do sometime i think i should stop thi and leave earth but dont have the courage to that also i dont know why i am writing this but i know i just wanted to rant out so i did love u all of u. ❤ and especially praju. Didi

  21. Tanvi

    Same happens to me whenever I leave a comment in your video, maybe I will try harder to write it down more heartfully the next time! .Bt hey I love u P! You have been my idol ❤️

  22. Harshit Anju

    You all can write. Having the willpower to express that notion will make you jot. Personally, if I have a topic, it’s a bee in the bonnet. I can’t perform anything with my whole mind. I grab pen and paper, express for myself. This is my way of content writing.
    A big thanks to Prajakta for being a great source of creativity, motivation, and happiness to all the DUMDUMS.❤️

  23. Devanshi Meher

    Hi mostlysane..I am Devanshi..a 13 year old girl with biggest dreams in the world..I having started writing diary not daily but often and honestly I could relate to this because it true and this is true that I forget writing about the bad thing happened to me because I don’t want to feel that bad I felt at that time..I know I am just 13 and there’s a long way to go but I do have my problems..
    Just keep writing blogs like these so that many can relate to u..

    I don’t know if you will read this or not but I just want to leave this comment for you to know that YOU ARE GREAT AND THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL THAT I AM NORMAL AND IT’S NORMAL TO FEEL THE WAY I DO..

    Thank you so much..Love you♥️♥️♥️
    Have a great day..

  24. Nutan Acharya

    I felt like this is my inner heart speaking.. It is so 100% relatable and genuine . Keep on scribbling your thoughts it feels good to read them.

  25. Kashish srivastava

    Di loved it, it’s the same feeling in everyone but no one wants to write about it. It is amazing. 😍 you should write blogs more often

  26. Nutan Acharya

    I really loved your style of writing .. The subtle and sarcastic way you chose for your article is amazing.. It just made reading interesting. Keep posting regularly di!

  27. Anshul

    I love reading your blog that’s amazing…. even I can relate this with me … the same thought I also had when I had heartbreak ….

    So this is very relatable for me..

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