The night before the big day was the scariest.
I hate packing. So, I left that to be done on that night. The nerves were kicking in and the fear was real.
Wanting something all your life feels so much different from having it.
When my first solo trip got confirmed, I couldn’t stop raving about it to everybody!
I Imagined everything from outfits for each day of the trip to meeting cute strangers on my flight.
But on the night before my flight, the nerves kicked in hard enough for me to question my decision.
Was I ready to take this trip all by myself?
I am not particularly the kind of person who scares easy.
Or so I told myself until this trip.
I woke up early on the big day. The house was empty because mamma-baba were out vacationing with their friends. I did my daily chores, cleaned the house, packed everything, and made a quick trip to the store to get everything else. Done.
I still had four hours till I left for the airport and the thoughts in my head were not being my friend.
I am used to mamma re-packing my bags for every trip I take. She knows exactly what I forgot to pack. So, I pack, she re-packs.
She wasn’t home this time.
I am also used to baba dropping me to the airport every time. No matter how busy he is, he always clears his schedule. Taking a cab to the airport while leaving for a vacation was just depressing.
Vrishank says I am spoilt. I disagree. As always.
I decided to get ready and leave for the airport earlier than I needed to. I was alone and scared at home. I’d rather be alone and scared at the airport.
I always thought I needed company. Every time I had to go to the mall, my first thought was listing the possible people I could quickly call to come hang out with me. Even a trip to the store to buy milk and eggs comprised of nervous-calling everybody I knew so I had someone to talk to till I got home. Every once in a while, I would tell myself to spend some me-time. Which was poor translation for Netflix and Stuff-your-face-till-you-get-sick. I always believed I was the sort of person who needs people around all the time. I wasn’t quite sure I would enjoy my company. Maybe that is why I dreaded this trip so much so suddenly.
Since I was at the airport way before time, I decided to have a mini-meal before I queue at the check-in counter. Went straight for momos and a strawberry cocktail. The momos were delicious but the drink sucked. I finished it all anyway because I paid way too much for it. Yep. I am Indian in every way like that.
It’s frustrating how I can’t remember the last flight I took from Mumbai which wasn’t delayed. This time the delay was of a whole 90 minutes. I knew this was going to come bite me in the ass and so it did. Quite expectantly I missed my connecting flight to Penang from Kualalampur. I don’t know what I was more upset about. Missing my flight or spending 3 more hours at the airport.
Anyhoo! Took the next flight out and checked into my hotel room in Penang by around 4pm!
I’ve always been a fan of long, quite baths. So, took one and hit the bed right away.
I realized I hadn’t slept in more than 24 hours. Counting my overnight flight and the delay! I got no sleep on the plane. There were 2 screaming kids in a 10-meter radius from my seat.
I KNOW!
Woke up at around 9:30 pm, changed and decided to get some dinner. Walked to the hotel’s restaurant only to find it completely empty. Not a soul in sight. According to the waiter, everyone in town wraps dinner before 8pm. Thank god, my hotel had a 24-HR restaurant.
Got myself a table by the pool facing the sea. This hotel was snazzy. It had a private beach. I couldn’t dare to get a table closer to the sea though. I’ve always feared water after sundown. The sea sounds so angry to me at nights.
This was officially my first meal in Penang. So, I decided to order a local delicacy.
‘Mamak Mee’ is what I settled for. Noodles, chicken and fish cakes. What’s not to like!
This was also my first meal with myself. Back home I never really go out to eat by myself.
And I don’t know why!
I stared into my phone for the first couple of minutes because I was so confused as to what the rest of my body is supposed to do when I am sitting at a table alone with food and nobody to talk to or no television to stare at.
The food was GOOD!
I eventually put my phone down and ate in silence.
Hmm. Not so bad.
Finished dinner, cleared my bill, thanked the waiter and walked away.
I didn’t quite feel like heading back to my room just yet. It was too late to walk around town alone. So, I took a stroll around the hotel property. The roaring waves made my walk in the opposite direction from the beach. Walked around for a bit. There was a pool, another restaurant, a parking spot and a condo. Spotted a bench in the condo and sat down for a bit.
Mumbai is always buzzing. No matter what time of day. Cars, honks, people. Also, the weather back home is torturing.
However, it was surprisingly quiet on the streets here. An occasional motor-biker passed by but otherwise, I could still hear the waves. The weather felt great too. Not as humid as I had expected.
I sat on the bench with a blank mind. I had no thoughts. I stared at the street then at the parking lot and then back at the street. An occasional thought about home crossed my mind. But other than that, nothing really. I checked my watch, it said 11:20 pm.
Went back to staring.
Checked my watch again. It said 12:20 pm
WHAT!!
Killing time was always a task for me. I would deliberately reach places late because I hated waiting alone.
Not anymore, I guess!
That hour on the bench alone was the best part of my day.
To come to think of it, when was the last time you spent an hour being your selfish self? I have no memory of a time when I decided to think of myself and myself only and do everything that pleased nobody but me. I can’t even count the number of movies I missed or the restaurants I ditched because I didn’t have company.
I remember spending hours after lights-out, sitting on a stool in front of my mirror talking to myself about my day and going to bed happy because I knew my mind and my heart were on the same page. I have no idea why I stopped that exercise. People never believed me, but I never felt the need of having a sibling growing up because I loved myself as a child.
Nostalgically, I walked back to my room happier that night because now I knew I enjoyed my company. And finally, this solo trip seemed like the best decision ever!
Changed back into my PJs, got in bed, surfed the internet for a while and turned the lights off at 4:15 am.
And that was day one.
This is SO amazing ! It felt like i wasn’t reading this blog but you were the one reading out to me in your voice ❤
Cmon ur first blog n u write here waves intead of hear…. wake up prajakta
A good start to the the blog. Enjoyed reading the little details that I couldn’t find on the vlogs. Also so many relatable feelings. I have always wanted to go someplace all by myself but canceled because that little voice in my brain keeps saying all negative stuff to push the thought away. Now that I know it’s not just me who does it, I will definitely push myself out of the house alone more often. It’s extremely necessary I start enjoying my own company.
Keep inspiring. Keep posting.
Much love Prajakta 💙
It’s amazing how you literally made us feel like we were right there with you at that very moment & that says A LOT! LOVE LOVE THIS BLOG! #CantWaitForMore #WayToGo 😭💪❤🙈👏
Hey ! I was having a bad mood but this cheered me up 😄 I’m definitely gonna go to solo trip once the right time comes ! Good job👍 Kudos ❤
Great Start Prajakta❤️ I feel even i should spend more time with myself rather than thinking about the world. I have realised what all i have missed just because i was thinking about others😊 I believe i should express myslef more after everything i hv been gping through😌 Anyways, you are amazing👍🏻 Keep going girl.💪🏻
Loved it! Because I watch so much of your videos, it actually seemed like you narrating it! In your tone!😁
All the best, It was awesome 😍
Loved itt..!!!!!!!! 💓💓💓
Awsome!! well written .I.loved it😍
This was something really amazing a little mistake in the middle but far better than I thought liked your work great start 😊
This literally is a great start!😍
It felt as if you are sitting beside me and narrating it to me. The blog is brilliant.
THIS makes us want to take some time out of this life and chill with the person that we actually are. Oh! MostlySane you make us want to believes in the unimaginable!❤🙊
After reading this…I want to start writting..keep it up
This was so good ! 💯
That…. my friend, was great!!!
I just imagined everthing….hw wel u hav described just loved it..wi8ng fr ur next blog love love
It’s amazing Prajakta…good going❤ Keep it up👍
Amazing? Brilliant? Yaaaassssss. Girl, how do you do this? #LoveLove and ya, I wont settle for less. Make more blogs, cox I cant wait to read the second one now😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘
Amazing, the title given is completely justified. Motivates me in a way to spend time with myself. 👍
This write up is amazing. Hoping to read more, Di. Love love! 💜
This was aammaazziinnggg!!!! I actually replaced Me with You! And thought if she can do it then why I can’t just THINK of doing it!! I miss being with myself! Need more!! 😍💁🏼
All the best👏🏼👍🏼
O my god I loved this
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Luv for uh will never end
I could still here the waves. Won’t it be I could still hear the waves( sorry a grammar nazzist)😂
Else its a very good start…felt like you are talking to us.
Thumbs up…
Keep writing
Hohooooo !!!awsm awsm awsm 😘
Honestly full Malaysia vlog was going on in my mind while reading it. The blog is really good. Loved it❤.
How amazing this is!!! ❤❤
It was amazing reading this Prajakta❤❤ don’t worry, you’re too good at it you know.
Beautiful!♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
How amazing it is to know there’s someone who feels exactly the way you would. You are awesome 😘 touching people’s life in the most beautiful way possible ❤ More power to you 🙌
Loved the blog…I hope u keep writing more such amazing blogs ❤❤❤LoveLove❤❤😚😚
Hey This was beautiful. An amazing start but really after watching so many of your videos it felt like you were literally narrating this out.
It’s so important to enjoy your company whenever you’re alone and this blog was awesome! A great beginning many many more to come 💙
Keep doing this more power to you♥
Hey prajakta,honestly blog was good.
You had nice experience. Waiting for blog.I had never read any blog till now
This blog is first.
This is so good . Idk Y but I was just about to cry reading this . This is magical for real . Ilysm ♥♥♥ Prajakta . You really inspire and motivate me to doing so many things. I want to thank you for this article
Amazing work Prajakta di…😍 enjoyed reading it 😊
This is absolutely lovely!!! It really felt like yiu were reading it out to me… It was your voice throughout the blog!!
Beautifully expressed prajakta ✌✌ !! ‘Me time’ is must..!! My me-time was Window seat of local train (i used to catch thana local so i used to get window seat 😅) but now a days m too busy don’t know where .. m lost somewhere!! 😖 No time for ‘me-time’ it’s must seriously!! To understand urself.. ur strength ur weakness!! Most importantly the real u!!!
Love u gg praju..
Too good!
Also, I like it how you mentioned the three most important people of your life in it making them all the more important for this blog.
Keep blogging 😍😘
I never had solo trip but i feel u must hve enjoyed a lot
It’s good
Wowww..! It was amazing prajakta..! I kind of thought why the hell this blog ended.. It was dat amazing.. I just wanted to keep on reading it yaar.. I loved it.. I absolutely loved it.. Big big congratulations to u for ur official blog.. Really very proud and happy for u.. God bless u always.. Love Love dear.. 😊😊❤️❤️😘😘
Yuuuhoooo!!! …
you knw waht actually m not atall fond of reading but then it was ur blog sooo i thought lets take a chance n read …… i started reading n guesss wat i couldn’t stop my self frm reading it whole …. i could imagin each n every moment u must hav gone through it felt sooo gud n refreshing waitin despirately for more n more such blogs and jus wanna say u r amazin af ….
P.S: & Until we meet love love😘
It just amazing 😍😍😍 how beautifully u described each nd every moment of it simply loved it waiting for another bone 💖
That’s grt
Lo
Loved this article❤
OMGGGG I LOVE THISSSS
Omggg …. Love you pk …
Just can’t put my eyes off this article.
You are such a sweet person.
Stay blessed and keep everyone entertained always.
MostlySane, YouTube channel that saved my life when it was in danger!!! Thank you prajakta didi!!! This blog 8s superb love love
Solo trips be like! So proud of you Prajakta 🙂
Topic ch bhari hota…Tujha blog bgun mla athvl majh… Mi ekda
It was quite a ride.It felt as though you, yourself were reciting it to us.Also,kudos for being so honest whilst writing this blog.
Now, waiting for the next one!Wishing you all the success in life 🙂
You go girl!
Wow..!! Awesome Prajakta…I really like your blog..Ur awesome gal..Nice one..😍😍😍😘 Congratulations fo ur official blog…#lovelove